not again

It's happened again
the thought again
of having lost the one I love again
is too hard to bear. the feelings we shared are now gone again

I tried again
to turn this around again
but no reply comes and no sound again.
a lifetime I wish I had to comply with the things you want me to do again.

I died again.
you said it was real again.
I belived you, I trusted again.
But now I have found that I do not have time to play these games you play again.

I loved again.
The pain in my heart you stirred up again.
you left me. I should have known again.
I hope you're happy with whoever you find, cause I dont think I can wait round again.

Remember again.
The smile on your face I can't see again.
It haunts like the stories I'll never read again.
The time passed so fast I thought that would last and now I'm on my own again.

This time again.
and now I must go but I want you to know that I never felt dead til I knew you would leave me with thought in my head of future and dreams, that it's not what it seems when you told me it's real and it was so sureal, that I lost sight of what I thought might make you be mine til the end of time, so it failed again.
Here I am again. Cold and dark again.
Goodbye again.

I love you Susie. Don't forget me.

A lifetime written in 5 minutes

when everyone leaves you behind,

And there's no one left to find.

When everyone just decides to quit,

And all you can do is cry and sit...

He'll be there.

///

When everything you loved is lost,

And there's nothing left for the cost.

When everything you had is now gone away,

And all you can do is cry and lay...

He'll be there.

///

When everyday is a fight not to just die,

And there's no time left to sigh,

When everyday you ask why you still exist,

And all you can do is cry and pound your fist...

GOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.

The emotion of missing you

Tonight I am without you.
Dreams of you and your warmth,
make my reality so cold.
I can see your face,
and you reaching out to me.
Can you see me smiling back?
My mind aches for your grace.
My mind runs in circles,
waiting to hear your voice.
When I breathe,
I pray that the air is of you.
If I lose you while you are gone,
I will be lost.
As I write this,
please think of me.
Think of me every moment, as I of you.
Forever, I am missing you... always.