People listen, hear my speech.
Don't be destracted by the stuff within reach.
The end is what we drive for, the end of the race.
Don't listen to the ones that will slow our pace.
The thing we look for isn't the clothes,
it isn't the concerts people see in droves.
It's the love of the Master that drives us on.
He will help us be strong till the race is done.
This world is NOT my home! I'm just passing through.
I wish that all the world could go with me too.
But they can if only we tell them you see,
I can't do it alone, at least God is with me.
People will talk about how we dress funny,
but when THEY die they won't be taking they're money.
But I will take with me the thing that I need.
And I'll be going fast, as on a valiant steed.
Don't be a stumbling block, don't slow us down.
We won't stop or slow, we're looking for a crown.
Effortlessly God will help us out,
of all of the hopelessness, the doubt.
People tell others this thing.
About the one who died even though he was King.

The Last Time...

Headlights in the distance.
She's headed out for one last chance.
Doing what she started.
She gives him one last glance.
She disappears into the darkened night.
Trying to fight.
All her selfless love for him.
Driving away will help defend.
This memory controlling every moment lived.
She takes a breath in.
Hoping her every brokeness will somehow mend.
She questions her thoughts.
As she drives into a bend in the road.
Suddenly looks up and loses control.
Blackened night.
Mixed into a blurr of lights.
Twisted metal.
Trying to save her with all of their might.
Unconsciously she drifts away.
Breathing is slow and she's fading.
Her beautiful soul is unwinding.
To be let free.
To somewhere not seen.
The last time.
That she drove away out of sight.
The very last of their fights.
The very last of the stars being bright.
There she goes.
Say goodbye.
Chances are that you might not make it.
In time to see.
Her beautiful soul alive in me.


This was written about not getting a second chance
to tell people before they left how I felt. RIP

Christian Hedonist

what are we but today
each passing breath
rushing from our lungs
incessantly, no rest

what am I but a fool
to ever hope to teach
for I can barely live life
let alone stand, preach

what are we but the moment
in which the world stands still
whether it is in her arms
or leaning on the windowsill

I'm a hedonist and a christian too
pain and joy God gives impartially
pain is a burden to bear, become stronger
joy is the answer to pain's mortality

For pain alone is meaningless
without a higher aim, a target to be acquired
Joy is the purpose in all the pain
Desire for joy and you shall never grow tired

Joy is the effervescent beauty of spring
to understand the thunderstorm
the power and might that it suddenly brings

Joy is the answer in trouble or in pain
Christ died to give us a reason to rejoice
and unite ,until he brings his kingdom in

If pain and sorrow come to you
learn to live and rejoice
hedonist's for Christ we are
show him in life, voice

That you still remember
when he died for you
for we are a happy few
who know this truth

Joy is why I live today
Joy in Christ to find
to live for nothing save that happiness
rejoicing state of mind

What are we but today
each passing breath
rushing from our lungs
incessantly no rest

Here

No longer trapped in lost words
With nothing to say
Fighting against things
That are sent my way
Focused on confusion
Without a way out
Resting fully on myself
Sinking in doubt
Now seen so clearly
From where I now stand
Where secrets are unraveled
Taken from my own hands
To the front of the stage
Where everyone can see
That I wasn’t alone
And will never be

Since You...

Do you lie awake at night.
Thinking about what is right.
Do you lie awake in the middle of the day.
Wishing everything would go away.
Because I do too.
I'm trying to stand.
But the world's upside down.
Everythings against me.
& I'm spinning around.
Since you decided to break my heart.
I've been slowly falling apart.
Since you decided not to care.
I expect you not to be there.
Spare me with your advice.
It's useless now.
I can't trust a liar, who I use to trust somehow.
As your seeing someone new.
Think of me and I'll think of you.
Remember everything we had.
& as you look back at your past.
It was I who tried to get it back.
Since you decided to walk away.
Remember I was the one who stayed.
Since you decided it wouldn't last.
Remember I was the one good thing in all of the bad.
Since you.
I'll never be the same.

pray hard,

pray always,

pray willingly,

your life it sways.

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pray

heart words

It's been a while,

Since I've seen your face,

Oh how I miss your heavenly grace.
I think of you everyday,

So I'm taking time to say.

You are the Angel of my eyes,

You are the sunshine of my sky.
You never once on me wanted to quit

No matter how hard it would get.

So in my heart, that's where you stay.

I love you rebecca

Every... single... day.